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"Your eyelid is twitching... your eye is still, but your eyelid is twitching". That's what my wife told me. Nystagmus is not easily to be tamed. I have learned to feel it, and in some cases stop it for a few minutes; but it is always temporary relief. It comes back, the world blurs, until I turn my head sideways, to find that mysterious quiet spot. Thus, with my head sideways, I have existed most of my life.

What is stronger, love or power? Is it better to feel and understand or to control and direct? I started out with Love, trying to feel the nystagmus, but as time progresses and I loose patience I try more to control. "You just have to convince yourself", my father said once. So I made up a little chant, a spell, of sorts. In another method, I also try just to see a small object without shaking. maybe a capital T in some presentation I am watching - or a speed limit sign - see it without blurring, just a clean shape. If it works, I can place my finger on one closed eye for a second and feel the shaking is mostly gone. Otherwise it shakes and this does not work, then I try the spell.

Also yesterday during a meeting, i caught it by looking off to the side, and brought it back to the center, it was an interesting feeling to dodge it that way, but I could not repeat it after the shaking started back up again.

If one Will do it, it can be done.